Christine
Kane
Where: Laurel Ridge Country Club on 788 Eagles Nest Rd in
Waynesville
When: Friday, July 11 at 8 pm
How Much: $33 and includes dinner
Info: Call 828.456.2277
The quill of Shakespeare couldnt have inked it better.
About 10 years ago, singer songwriter David LaMotte had to cancel
a weekend of shows at the Town Pump in Black Mountain. His only savior
was Christine Kane — writer, waitress, and aspiring performer.
LaMotte asked Kane to fill the void, and despite anxiety bottled like
surly champagne, she agreed to replace her friend.
Shaking like an old washer, Kane made her way through three sets of
singing covers. Her internal imps were ablaze with fear and doubt
until they were doused by a near heavenly affirmation. Members of
a Shakespearean theatre troupe performing in town had meandered into
Christines set. One of the actors, in utter disbelief that it
was Kanes first night playing music in a club, handed her a
$100 bill and told her to never give up.
It was an endorsement from the angels, Christine told
me over breakfast in downtown Asheville. It was a big nod that
said — yeah, youre terrified, and yeah, you stink, but
you just had an artist tell you to keep going.
And shes rolled on like a voluptuous snowball. In 10 years,
Christine Kane has gone from hoping to being. Besides musician, Kane
is in demand around the country as a keynote speaker, teacher and
lecturer. Her four albums (the first three were self-released) are
all lapped by waves of critical acclaim and high sales. In 1998, the
singer songwriter got named one of the top three college performers
by Campus Activities, and she won a songwriting competition at Merle
Fest in 2000. Christines writing prowess earned her resident
songwriting instructor at the highly respected Swannanoa Gathering
in 2002 and 2003; and her strong social values makes her a regular
for humanitarian causes and charity concerts, including Girls on the
Move, an Outward Bound program for at risk teens.
Presently, her success seems to run on gravy. Her fan mail base rides
at 5,200 strong and Borders bookstore is spotlighting her in its Folk
listening station for the summer. Her headlining gig at the Rocky
Mountain Folk Festival this August is an immense compliment in the
folk universe.
But it seems that this musician isnt yard-sticking her success.
(Writing for me) is like golf, meditation, or marriage for others,
said Kane. With any deep investment youre going to come
face to face with your demons (like the voices that say youre
the worst writer in the world. Youre the best writer
in the world). And you become a deeply motivated person because
of it. No longer does the ego stuff serve you .... Its not worth
it because of the accolades. Its worth it because of the process
to get there.
Kanes allure is her writing, the words that pulse without a
touch of maudlin. Her latest album, Rain and Mud and Wild and Green
(Big Fat Music) is full of lyrics that caress without giving a sappy
residue.
There are those who tell their tales
Without hesitation
Of saved souls and holy grails
Coven to congregation
I dont care whether youve seen the light or felt the
magic
Are you gentle? Are you kind when youre stuck in traffic?
— The One Thing that I Know
Nor does she saccharin it up with moral lines that would make deviants
sweat.
We watched as they paved, as they worked, as they tore
You said, I have no faith in this earth anymore
Sounded like hopelessness, sounded like need
I grabbed you, we ran to the trees
There was rain
And we danced in it
There was mud
And we ran in it
It was wild
Deep inside of everything green
There was pain
That we talked about
There was love
And we let it out
And we prayed
In the shade of everything green
— Everything Green
I dont have a voice that tries to force feed,
said Kane. I believe your true voice and your true message
come out strong when youre singing in front of an audience,
regardless of the words. My deep belief is that Im using my
voice for healing, connection, and teaching people.
I try not to be heavy handed in thought, she continued
with a rueful grin, although I can be very opinionated.
And she could have let vitriol spew with Everything Green,
written (partly) in ill homage to the development of the U.S. 19-23
highway.
(19-23 going up to Johnson City) is a horrible thing to look
at, Kane said. With things like that, its tempting
to throw your hands up at everything — trees, kindness ...
getting out of bed.
But her anger flowered because of Julia Butterfly Hill, the world-renowned
activist who spurned loggers by spending two years camped high up
on a Redwood.
I read her book Legacy of Luna prepared to be totally depressed
and shaky, said Kane. I read it in a night. I was amazed
that its a subject [logging of forests] so dear to her heart
and yet, the book is saturated in kindness.
Hills book became the spirit of Everything Green
and made Kane realize that awareness doesnt need a wagging
finger.
Theres a lot of horrible things going, and heres
a reminder of why were here and whats important,
said Kane. Lord knows theres enough politically correct
depressing folk songs. I dont want to make a listener hurt.
The root of Christines philosophy — a belief that her
talent should be used to give to the world — makes her a treat
with fans needing a little reprieve from reality.
I think its easy to get thrown off balance, she
said. It seems that people think that theyre either
all about giving to others, or all about fulfilling themselves.
When actually, theres always a part of you being served when
you give. Its selfish to take yourself out of the equation.
Even her songwriting workshops are studies in spiritual inwardness.
Kane gets students to go beyond the cookie cutter philosophy of
tune-smithing. Instead, she tells each individual to dig inward
and cultivate the inner voice.
I encourage people to not be afraid of their own voice, and
this kind of process isnt limited to the work of writing song.
I tell them to experience their life fully and jump off the path
of the should.
And its hard not to be smitten with her philosophy. Heres
a musician whos gone from shaky stool strummer to a respected
artist with a whiff of sage nobility. Naively, I thought her success
must be partly derived from all those hours on the glorious road,
free from the headaches of normal life, free to write to the rhythm
of the passing yellow lines.
Its hideous, she clarified. Recently, I
was in a St. Louis airport trying to carry all at once my gigantic
100 pound guitar case, a computer, and two suitcases. Then my cell
phone rang and everything fell. It was my good friend whos
also a songwriter, and we laughed at how ridiculous it all is. Touring
is 22 hours of schlepping and two hours of performing.
Kane blames the Red-Headed Stranger and the Beat Generation for
her travails.
(Being on the road) is glamorous in that people like Willie
Nelson and Jack Kerouac made it glamorous to live life in the grimy.
I dont happen to find it glamorous. If youre unhappy
with your job, you may look at a tour bus with envy .... I guess
the only difference between me and someone with a regular is I get
applauded when I get to work, she laughed.
This kind of humor keeps Christine sane and makes her songs pointed
without leaving an irritating wound. Her pens aged like Dick
Clark, maturing nicely since she began writing over 20 years ago,
while growing up in Fairfax, Va.
I could see as a kid that I was destined to be an artist,
remembered Kane. Starting in the sixth grade, I wrote constantly.
They became my outlets in high school and college [Christine also
wrote a column for the school paper at Boston College]. Still, at
that time, I didnt think of myself as an artist.
The pressure of finding a job, marrying the college sweetheart,
and becoming a suburban clone didnt bode well for Kane. After
graduating, she decided to take a two-month writing class in Asheville.
The short sabbatical (thus far) turned into 11 years. During her
period of self-discovery, Christine made a living waiting tables
and writing in her free time. But, she still had identity troubles.
It took the prodding of close friends to stoke her true gift.
I had a great friend who started calling me a songwriter.
She forced me to start calling myself a musician. She started introducing
me to other people as, This is Christine, shes a musician.
I thought these people would call my bluff once they saw me perform.
However, the real sham turned out to be her internal doubts. The
LaMotte Incident instilled a smidgen of courage, and
Kane began to polish her act on the local Asheville scene. Her debut
CD, This Time Last Year (recorded in a friends basement) received
lofty praise and unpredictably good sales. The second album, A Thousand
Girls, showed Christines maturation as both a writer and a
musician aware of creating atmospheric textures and rhythms.
Her fourth album, Rain and Mud and Wild and Green, is arguably the
best yet. Kane hooked up with producer Ben Wisch (Kathy Mattea)
to man the knobs. Wisch then acquired Bob Dylans hired gun,
Larry Campbell, to do guitar work on the album.
Halfway through the recording, Christine flew to New York City for
more studio work. The next session fell on Sept. 11, 2001. Work
got put on hold for a week, as normalcy got displaced in the carnage.
I found myself caught between two worlds, Kane wrote
in the liner notes. One where I was locked up alone in a friends
apartment staring at the TV for hours in a stupor of sadness and
fear; and the other where I walked aimlessly through the streets
of the Village just to be with other people who also just wanted
to be with other people.
Kane credits producer Wisch for keeping it together during the sessions
that followed. The album, in parts, definitely takes on a darker,
yet wiser tone. Times Three became the first song they
recorded after 9-11, and its portency was uncanny. Kane wrote the
song before the tragedy, but the songs message seems like
a postscript anthem.
Noise all around me
Sounds like Graffiti
In this broken land
Where we will tell you
Where we will sell you
And we will shake your hand...
And I dream now
To wake up all the love inside me
Time Three
And I see how
The light alone is all we need.
Almost two years later, Kane still skips down the shimmery path
despite the bumps and thorns that may appear. Her fears are vaporizing
(when she opened for 20,000 people in lieu of the Beach Boys she
told me I put on my sunglasses, closed my eyes and enjoyed
the moment.) and she began another glam tour at
the beginning of July.
Kanes wisdom stems from panic and self-reservation, ugly traits
that have swanned over time.
I am like the poster child for fear and self-doubt,
said Kane. A friend told me that its not fear, its
just all these dreams that youve pushed down all these years.
Now, I make a point to tell new artists to keep going. The most
frightened people have the most to offer.