Everythings happening all the time. Superman said this. So did
Albert Einstein and Stephen Hawking. The repercussions are myriad. If,
indeed, everything is happening all the time, then our every action,
every gesture, every thought reverberates — sometimes pleasantly,
sometimes unpleasantly, and sometimes in a way Id rather not acknowledge.
For instance, I was recently parked (inconspicuously, I hoped) in the
far corner of a local fast food parking lot about to remove the paper
wrapper from a chicken sandwich. In an old van parked beside me, there
was an elderly man unwrapping his sandwich, which he also chose to eat
in his vehicle in the parking lot rather than joining the others contributing
to the economy in the restaurants legitimate dining area. I dont
know what his reason was for eating in the parking lot. Maybe, like
me, he was self-conscious about his trashy cravings and didnt
particularly want to be seen there. Or maybe, like me, his spouse was
a vegetarian — not a militant one, mind you, one who makes you
feel bad about carnivorous habits, but who goes quietly about life exhibiting
the integrity of ones convictions — far worse, in all actuality,
than one who harangues you. Maybe he didnt want that spouse to
drive by and spy him guiltily consuming his fast-food lunch. Or maybe
his clothes were as old and dirty as his van, and he was sensitive to
his obvious poverty.
After all, there has been some attention given to the fact that currently
in America it is often the poor who are overweight because they eat
food like this. This is in opposition to how things were nutritionally
a century ago, when vegetables and grains were the staples of a poverty
diet and the poor seldom could afford meat and higher fat foods. But
now we have no-fat fat and plenty of restaurants willing to prepare
delectable and healthy meals for those who want real nutrients and can
pay the price. The working poor need cheap and convenient food, and
so this is what they eat. They eat whats available in fast-food
places, convenience stores, and whats affordable from the freezer
section of instant meals in grocery stores. The better off — and
that includes me — can afford healthier food made with fresher
ingredients if we want them. In any case, the old guy and I were simultaneously
doing the same thing with our lunch.
And so there we were, slumming and salivating, and just as I was about
to bite into my juicy chicken sandwich, I thought again about simultaneity,
and it occurred to me that, according to Albert Einstein, Stephen Hawking,
and Superman, I would forever be about to sink my canines into what
was once this chickens breast. If that was the case, then the
chicken which had died (that I might live) would for every moment throughout
eternity be carried by its legs upside down above a conveyor belt headed
for the mechanized knife that would cut its throat. And the underpaid
workers wiping viscera and feathers from their aprons (in what Mother
Jones magazine calls the most dangerous job in America) further down
the line would be waiting throughout that same eternity for another
chicken to arrive for butchering. And the owner of that particular hell
farm in the Piedmont of North Carolina would continually be opening
her mail to see if the scientists — fine researchers who had introduced
time-saving and helpful antibiotics and growth hormones injected into
the chickens on her farm — had yet produced the worlds first
boneless chicken through the wonders of genetic engineering, thus furthering
human comfort and happiness. (And why not boneless? — laying hens
in egg factory farms already have their beaks removed to prevent pecking.)
But I took the bite anyway. And it tasted great, as it should. After
all, the plant which produces the flavorings that give fast food their
enticing aroma (just off the New Jersey turnpike, I understand) uses
all the necessary chemicals to create the smell of delicious cooked
meat. Ah, cooked meat. A tiny particle of the cooked meat I was eating
landed on the jacket I was wearing. As I brushed it off, I thought about
this new pile jacket. (Id ordered it from a nice outdoor clothing
company, whose catalog always depicts families with their summer homes
and fourth generation golden retrievers, perpetually on vacation.) The
jacket is a cozy blend of polyester, rayon, and nylon, and it both repels
water and blocks wind.
As I thought further about the implications of everything happening
all the time, I also thought about who had made this jacket, and who
was, according to Albert, Stephen, and Clark, still making this jacket.
The tag reads Made in Mexico, and so I considered NAFTA,
and textile factories that employ children as well as adults to do the
basic sewing on these garments. I envisioned the children, throughout
the eons, operating their machines, watching the shiny needles go up
and down, up and down, always trying to ensure that their quick and
nimble little hands dont get caught in those shiny needles. In
my envisioning, the textile factory that produces this clever combination
of materials only produces the tiniest bit of toxicity, and its
only introduced into the air outside of, say, Juarez, Mexico. The members
of the community dont complain much. Most of them lost their farms
when they couldnt compete with international agribusiness, and
so they are grateful to these magnanimous factory owners who allow them
to construct scrap wood homes within walking distance of the factories
where they work. This is particularly kind since most of the workers
will never make enough money to buy a car.
As for me, I had to drive my own car back to work as soon as I finished
my sandwich, so I needed to eat a little faster. I noticed my fuel indicator
read near empty, and I needed to decide at which gas station to fill
my tank. I ruled out Exxon, because my 9-year-old daughter read a book
on the Valdez. Afterwards, she extracted from me the promise that I
would never buy gas at Exxon. From my own reading, I understand that
the CEOs of Exxon have never troubled themselves with paying for
the $5 billion in punitive damages levied against them by an Alaskan
court. If Einstein, Hawking, and Superman are right, then the image
which burned itself into my childs brain — a sea otter covered
in a thick black muck — is an image which is still taking place.
The sea otter will be trying to breathe through its oil-clogged nostrils
as the ages, as well as Exxons tankers, roll on.
Oh well, what doesnt kill us can only make us stronger. Friedrich
Nietzsche said that. So did Conan the Barbarian. Conan, what a guy.
He knew how to live life close to the bone, and to suck out all that
proverbial marrow. Driving life into a corner and sucking out its marrow
was held in high esteem by Henry David Thoreau. Like me, Henry David
was a failed vegetarian. That winter on Walden Pond was just too cold
for beans. But Thoreau would be proud of me. He also said, You
cant kill time without injuring eternity. And Im rushing
right through this sandwich, so Im not killing time, only chickens.
Like Andrew Marvell and all of working America, I always hear Times
winged chariot hurrying near. Those English writers, you have
to love them. Just think of Jane Austen. I love her so much that I completely
excuse her for having winked at Britains slave trade in the novel
Mansfield Park. She understood what it is to live comfortably. She understood
the danger of questioning ones culture, and the extent of the
upheaval that might be created if that questioning were carried through
to its logical ends. Most of all, she understood that it was in very
poor taste to bring up something as disturbing as slaves in faraway
Barbados when there was so much that was pleasant — games of whist,
Ceylon tea in bone china cups, amateur theatricals (which, by the way,
she did allow her heroine to frown upon as immoral).
This distaste for all that is not pleasing reminded me of a line from
an old country song, How can this feel so right and be so wrong?
I finished the last bite of sandwich. The bread was soft, the chicken
juicy, the gassed tomato just right. As I wadded up the paper and dropped
it in the trash, I thought again about Einstein, Hawking, and Superman.
And I thought about the poor and the overly busy, and what we eat because
its easy, and what we wear because its comfortable, and
what we overlook because its distasteful. Its just better
not to know some things. Id rather forget the saying, If
ignorance is bliss, then why arent more people happy? Some
anonymous Joe said that anyway, never dreaming that it would be cheerfully
shortened to Ignorance is bliss. What I need to concentrate
on is not thinking at all. If I can just make myself not think, I can
continue to live a normal life in 21st century American culture. It
all feels so good, and seems so innocent, I imagine well be living
this way forever.
(Dawn Gilchrist-Young is a teacher in the Swain County public schools.
She can be reached at youngericyoung@cs.com)